Are you familiar with "The eye with which I see God, is the same eye
with which God sees me"? I just think it's the same way with things.
Like if you see the Philippines as garbage, well, the Philippines, if it
could really talk, probably sees you the same way. I mean, let's start
with ourselves. It pains me to read things like "Philippines garbage"
because i love it. And I've tried, still trying in fact, to be the citizen that
a wonderful country deserves.
What is essential is invisible to the
eyes. You won't probably see what this country means to me, but I've
spent my whole life here on earth in this country. And I've learned a
lot, I've grown as a person. I don't consider myself garbage. Anyway, there is really no garbage.
I don't know how long the universe
has existed, but nothing has been lost, nothing has been gained. Everything has been here from the start, things just evolve, they just
change. Just sharing my thoughts
My birthday's coming. My goodness, I'm turning 26, I'm turning ancient.
I'm planning to go around some place near that I'm not familiar with (there are lots FYI). I'm kind of excited to see what I'd do if I get lost or something. And if I'd be able to find my way back home, I'd have something to brag about (hah, I could do it by myself! Miss Independent again). Or if something untoward (knock on wood) happens, like getting robbed etc. (that's pessimist me typing haha), what do I do, what do they do (those who actually care what happens to me)? I'm also thinking of leaving my phone so I could really have the day just by myself.
I don't know what's happening to me. Am I turning antisocial? I used to celebrate my birthday with my friends. I spent my last birthday in Cebu with coworkers. We went to my favorite place there, which is The Outpost. I love that place, so cozy, and of course, I love the music. I so love the place, I couldn't complain about the food although it was so-so. And then we went to Bo's to chill, and that was it.
But this year, I think I just want to be alone. I don't know exactly why, maybe I just want to be sad because I want to. Or maybe I just want something new. Anyway, my birthday falls on a Sunday, but the day before that is my cousin's 7th birthday and he's going to have his Royal Rumble party. And of course I got to be there, so that should be fun. Cousin Pet told me she'd come from Lipa for that wrestling party and I told her we could go out after the party to celebrate my birthday. So I would still celebrate after all. So much for planning to be sad.
I only get really miserable when I don't get to talk to anybody or if I wasn't able to laugh in a day.
Reading: 25 short stories
Listening to: give love on christmas day haha
Watching: the monitor
Feeling: amused
Lately, I don’t know why but I have
been eagerly listening to sappy sad love songs. I’m not bitter or
whatever.. I just appreciate how the message of the songs flows through
my cold veins as it pumps blood into my numb heart.
For now, I can attest to the saying that who can say why your heart cries, when your love lies.. only time.
Unconsciously, I can sleep well as I hit the sack after my shift. I
love seeing the sunshine as it peeks through the window of my bedroom.
I enjoy taking a nice looooonnng (take note: LONG ) shower and play
with my dresses in my closet.
The pain that I have been hiding from the whole world to see is long gone. I didn’t know when but it’s gone.
Whenever I try to remember the events that shattered my life, I just
laugh at myself for I never realized that I was too blinded by my
emotions. One thing I can say without any hesitations is I do not have
any REGRETS with what I had done in the past.
When we’re in-love, we do things way beyond what we normally do. We act as if there’s no tomorrow.. in short, insanity.
It’s really ironic but that is the bittersweet truth. The pain may
take forever to descend in my heart but only time will tell when will
it end… and it did!
If only the world knew what I had experienced, they will understand
why I decided to leave it and be on my own. Honestly? It’s shocking and
very traumatic for me. I learned a lot from all those things that
happened to me.
For now, I’m thankful that I managed to survive another adversity that once colored my life hue.
Listening to: If The Feelong Is Gone by Ella Mae Saison | Before I Let You Go by Freestyle | It Must Have Been Love by Roxette
Feeling: pensive
I woke up way too early yesterday. I believed I had slept around 12
MN then I got up at 3 AM. Well, I need to be at the office that early
because I’ll be seeing Ram and Cyril after their respective shifts. I
was at the office around 5:30 AM then Ram and I headed to SM Mall of
Asia to fetch Cyril. Around 6 AM, we were there at the mall to meet
Cyril.
However, Cyril had a call and he came out around 7:30 AM. Long call, huh?
First stop. We decided to grab a coffee at Starbucks while waiting
for Rose and Ella. It’s funny because while the Barista was trying to
build a rapport as we took our order, he just asked out of curiosity
and this line was the one I will never forget:
“So, you’re a balikbayan right?!”
We laughed out loud and I answered back, “Hindi ah, taga Imus lang ako. We’re currently working at Makati“.
Let these pictures do the talking. *winks!
I was kinda anticipating to see someone but I guess, we’re not meant to see each other during that day. o.O
Till next time guys and I hope complete attendance na tayo! =)
Listening to: Kahit Kailan by South Border
Feeling: loved
Noong nag-aaral pa ako sa College, natutunan ko sa aking klase na Finance ang mga katagang "calculated risk". In simple terms, ito yung pagsusugal at pagpusta sa llamado. Yung pagsabak sa giyera na may malaking chance na manalo ka.
Kung iisipin mo, lahat ng ginagawa natin ay sugal. Yun pagtawid mo sa kalsada, kung kakain ka ba o matutulog na lang, yun desisyon kung papasok ka ba sa skul o maglalaro ka na lang ng dota, pati yung pagsisimula ng negosyo, lahat yan sugal sa buhay.
Maka ilang beses na rin ako sumugal sa buhay ko. kadalasan, talo. yun nga ang sabi sa statistics, 9 out of 10 businesses ay nagsasara, totoo yun. Pero that does not stop you on trying. e pano kung eto na yung 10% na chance mo para mag succeed, dapat hindi mo palampasin.
Merong panahon sa buhay ko na kinailangan ko ng pera, syempre nangutang ako sa mga kakilala ko. hindi ko nga alam kung natatandaan pa nila na may utang ako sa kanila. Ginamit ko yung pera na yun pansugal. Ang problema, hindi ko ginamitan ng computation for calculated risk. hindi ko pa kasi natutunan yun nun panahon na yun. nun pinag-aralan ko yun endeavor, lumalabas na 1out of 89,785,745,416 ang chance ko na mag succeed. huli na ang lahat nung nalaman ko yun. at hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin sila nababayaran.
I really really really really wanted to start a business now. May concept na ako. Alam ko na kung sino ang mga empleyado ko, pero hindi ko masimulan dahil number 1: wala akong puhunan. number 2: hindi ko pa nakakausap ang mga taong involved.
Gusto ko isang restaurant na simple lang ang concept. walang eklavu, hindi siya karenderia, at hindi rin aircon.
Gusto ko meron akong parking space. kasya ang hanggang apat na sasakyan.
Gusto ko, operating hours ay mula 9am til 9pm.
Gusto ko malapit lang sa bahay namin ang location.
Makakabuo kaya ako ng puhunan sa pasko? Habang onti pa lang ang inaanak ko na bibigyan sa Pasko.
Para naman magamit ko ang pinag-aralan ko sa college at its fullest.
